heyy.. man.. its been awhile since my depression period. LOL.
well i thot it wasnt easy to get over her.. but after what i heard what she said to my friends.. she is really a let down.. it instantly made me forget her. and guess what, i was spared from the many days of depression.. she s not worth it.. any of my love, my thoughts of her and of course, her fav.. MONEY.. of course it isnt fair for her that i dont really hear from her side.. but who gives a shit.. i hope her next coming BFs to come have deep wallets or prepare urself.. atleast i dont spread arnd whats my reasons for breaking up with her.. and ppl coming up at me.. asking me.. my god.. i thot u changed.. all these while.. i was right..
im mean, i know.

anyways, im trying to mix with my own malay ppl again.. its difficult tho.. seeing how long ive haven been with them as a group.. im super happy la.. got my pay, got my adidas watch.. high cut converse shoes.. new clothes.. LOL.. prelims coming soon and my preps are as slow as the snails moving arnd.. man.. ill get it done.. i know i can.. everyday b4 go to sch must have a smoke.. after sch smoke.. if not schooling, one pack could like just last me for like what, 3 days? man.. i really appreaciate those who cares and notice how heavy a smoker ive become.. those constant "stop sufian.. please.." "each time u smoke, just think that ill be pinching you" "dont ask me out next time if u dun wanna stop" its irritatin. but it reminds me.. so thanks guys..

i guess now whats left for me is the Os den. i need more pressure.. to ensure that i go full speed. i might take a break or two.. cant wait for a new start next yr. WOOHOO.. and yeah.. stop smoking hopefully. HAHAHAHA