i didnt go anywhere today.. stayed at home.. me, my boxers and a pile of meds that my sudden-inspired-doctor-to-be-mom told me to consume.. which i totally didnt.. cuz, if i did, i would fall back straight to sleep.. what saddens me more, as i try to fight the rising temperature in me, all my efforts to rev was wasted.. i couldnt really concentrate.. and my papers are tomorrow.. i raved through bio and chem.. now just doodling on a piece of blank paper, trying to write down what i revised... and guess what.. its as blank as the paper itself.. now with the added stress.. the fever's attacking me at full force.. and as i write this entry, im tearing.. cuz my eyes are too hot.. not as in handsome kinda hot, but temp hot.. its frying my brains as we speak.. frying the alrdy so little information filled brain cells.. i wonder what would be left even if i get to be well tommorrow.. and thank god the paper is in the afternoon..

ANYWAYS....

apart from being sick and stuff.. i kinda day dreamed a part of my afternoon away.. stuff that would only be possible after Nov 6 or when i get to poly.. A certain someone.. a person.. fits an average person like me.. she could get better guys.. but i wonder if it is even possible.. heh.. cuz from the way i see it, if god lets me get to poly, it ll be awhile for me to get a new person.. im still fat.. arh.. stuff that girls would see in order to make us men their boyfriends.. hey, i worry abt my looks too ya know.. its alrdy soo bad that my legs cant wear skinnies.. damn dominant allele from my mom..
im physically sick.. mentally fried and unstable.
plus im a fat person with a disease called LOW SELF ESTEEM.

hey, guess what! SG is debating abt GAY STUFF. WAHAHAHA..


Doctor: Ive got two news for you, bad and good..
Soon-to-be-dad: (sobbing) Tell me the bad one doc..
Doctor: the bad one, baby didnt make it.
Soon-to-be-dad:(OH MY GOD sobbing) sniff..sniff.. pauses.. what abt the good one?
Doctor:You dont need to be a dad.