Stayed home the whole day today. No ciggarettes to past time by and the only contact to the outside world other than my handphone is the computer. Even if somebody were to ask me out, i figured, i wouldnt be joining them at all. Thats because the rope on my neck is tightening due to the lowering number in my card. I have use it in moderation now. If i could, it would be just nice for the last two weeks till the next of my pay. Its almost become like the oxygen that fills my lung. These are the only amount oxygen left to last me through two weeks. Other than that, its all mind over matter. If you have experienced it, this is the part where boredom lurks in. Where the activities are restricted as though you have been thrown in solitary confinement. Even the world seemed to have shut out on me? People have something going on each day while im here, stuck in my room with nothing much to do except to wait for nightfall. Not to mention, accompanied by the dreaded fact that tomorrow is Monday.

this is wrong. Deep down i know. but, when can i get high again?