See, i knew things will work its way out.
Only that its not the way that I want la.. haha. Yes, welcome to the "Lost Phase" in the chapter of my life. I just got heartbroken again just now, a few hrs ago. No, it wasnt love but it was my result to my Direct Admission Appeal to Republic Polytechnic. Few weeks ago it was the JAE. haha.. I didnt get it. I thought i could, after all that talk by the people that i know schooling there. "Can wan la.." "try la.." " my friend bla bla bla.." lol.. Nope, dont misinterpret me. Im not blaming you guys, thanks for those soothing, reasurring words that i wanna hear while i was in constant fear of the result. haha.. Talking about self-denial arh. haha.. Im now officially lost.

I actually planned out for this outcome. if this were to happen, i ve a set of other plans to reconsider. Im not sorry for myself. Im just sad for my parents. I ve gotta be one big dissapoint to them. They may not show it.. but somehow. haha.. anyways, as i was saying, yea, ive got other stuff to consider. Hell NO im not going back to Chin Swee Road. FUCK NO. lol. although its a cheaper alternative to retake the Os la.. still. fuck no. lol.

Keep On Appealing. (Althought i know it wont go anywhere.)
ITE
Private ( Retake wad i crapped).
Obvious choice no 1 isnt gonna help. Itll just make me feel lost all the more. Just gotta move on.
So here is how i compare ITE and Private.

ITE, normal-goverment fees bla bla bla, 2 years, Higher Nitec. 22 course which i dont really know what the hell they are into.

Private, $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

Ive got to talk to MOM AND DAD about this. Geez.. im not a fan of family discussion especially when there is money involved.
I thank god that my family is not really that rich. Cuz, i wont be what i am now. Always thinking before doing anything or spending and yes, using your own sweet cash tastes better. Trust me. sweeter than ice-cream. heh.
but. If i take private and really go at it, i can cut down 1 year. So that means Im a year late for those who are officially in poly right now and im a year faster 2 years faster for those of my age and batch who are in ITE. I need to count age and time into consideration okay.. im guy.. since we re borned, we ve been chopped or should i say reserved by the goverment. 2 years hutang!
GO NS.
so ya.
what do you guys think?

i dont wan lecture arh. Just opinions. lol. No mood already, just need to smoke myself to death. lol.. A hug anyone?