you know, i have this grandmother, my stepdad's mother who's been living with us all this time. And all this while, we dont really see eye to eye. She sort of has this character thats kinda undescribable. She's definitely not close to me as i was to my biological dad's mom. More like, i ignored her all the time. I dont really have much to say or more like, whatever i do have, is all bad. I dont want to have to think about all that to write it down cuz the old woman is on life support as we speak.
God forbid, honestly speaking from the bottom of my heart. Im an evil human being. I actually had something like this in mind sometime ago. Most of the time when i pissed off with her. That when she's about to leave earth, we have the other room back for my brother to take. Id have my own room all by myself. All that stuff. Im a fucker, really.
Now, she's really going. Im a fucker really. I wont be surprised if i got strike by lightning or something tragic happen to me. She is a grandmother to the house however she's not to me. This is honest feelings and i dont blame you for thinking what kind of lowlife i am.
you'd understand if you knew.
im lame for typing this out, but, im sorry for what ive done and may you be in god's good graces