confused feelings??..

phew.. kinda been awhile since ive blogged.. LOL.. well.. atlast, im back wit her.. no more walkin around wit my head down.. i ve got her back.. im feeling delighted.. i wonder if she feels the same.. however.. i noe tt this time, it aint gonna be the same anymore.. since im back wit her.. im having confused feelings.. since my breakup, gosh, news does travels fast.. since then, w had been opening up to me again.. smilin, waving, sayin hi.. its kinda nice.. somehow, i feel like ive done her wrong.. giving up jus like tt.. although i noe the truth is inevitable.. i and her could nvr get together.. we re in two diff worlds.. again.. its the race factor.. religion (who realli take tt into account realli when ur head over heels in love.. sorry god) and she is from a better stream.. why would she want me rite.. so i decide since there was somebody tt wants me.. i ready.. so i gave my love to jan.. i love her so much.. a guy should be happy when he got back his girl rite? well.. i was.. but why is this feelin diff from before.. i wan to be wit her.. i noe i do.. but.. this confusing feeling.. buggin me..i don noe.. but i dun see her the way i see before.. i noe i still love her.. but after the breakup.. i ve started to treat the word "love" sacred.. cuz obviously, i didnt realli kept my relationship wit he steady the last time i was wit her.. i dun say it often now.. i onli say like i heart u.. i dun wanna lose her again.. i cant take it.. but this confusing feelings.. how do i make it known to her.. hope i can be wit her now.. peacefully.. please.. tads all i m askin..