hell.. its 13 days of pure mother tongue.. what possesed the "HODs" to come up with the ludacris plan.. man.. and i thought they were suppose to be the ones who are ahead of every things concerning the sch.. damn. hope ill survive through this..

Work at haagen isnt much on mind already.. maybe its because im used to it? or is this what they call the human adaptation to something new? cuz i dont really think much abt it anymore.. they only time im nervous was when during work. The agony of anticipation.. waiting for customers to start pouring it.. well funny as it is, i got hooked onto Shayne Ward - Something Worth Living for.. cuz i listened to it to calm down my nerves when gettin to wrok on the second day.. haha.. and ive been listening to it ever since.. infact, im listening to it as we speak..

abt us.
Well maybe its foolish on my part. i hate what i tend to go through everytime. and its not her fault.. its wad i tend to do everytime.. damn. i think too much.. i claim im not a possesive guy, but the mere scene of her talking to other people alrdy makes my mind jump to conclusions.. grr.. i hate me like this.. why.. why.. arrggh.. i also get irritated easily when we go out and some people just starts to sms her.. i mean, its not wrong or what la.. im just over reacting here.. its to frequent. haha.. if i was abt to talk to her, when i turn, she would be clickin away.. den ill just turn away and stop whatever i wanted to talk abt... she ll go " what.." and ill go " nth.. " arhh.. why... and this also emphasizes that i think too much.. each time i wanna hold hands with her, i would tend to think, "okay, the distance from A to B is kinda near, so dont need la." den i wont get her hands.. and ill continue doing that till the end of the day, i realize i didnt even held her hands.. grr.. and then ill get irritated with myself.. lol.. Everytime she smses, ill be tempted to ask whis that, guy or girl.. goshh.. i dont wanna be sufian.. this is so not me.. i may not really seem like so, but i feel like theres a handful of people just waitin to get her.. like Likin her and getting her in order to get some stuffs.. (for the rec, my gal has a freat bod that she is proud of, Im proud of her too!) maybe becuase of these..
Another thing that worries me for her. i just hope that what she promised me, to tell me whatever that makes her feel uneasy or afraid, she would tell me. Jin maybe the no 1 suspect and the main of this topic.. Jun and took his tail in between his legs and been quiet. ( good scum. stay at it. and while ur at it, maybe just pretend to be dead alrdy.)
her Ex.. i thinking of multiple possible events that may either hurt her or lead us back to the break patch break patch times. and i ve had my resolve..

FUCK THESE ASSHOLES.


That no matter what happen. Ill be there for her.
I will never ever let go of her unless she asks me to do so.. i love her too much to do so..and Happen what may, im ready to protect her.. Ill do whatever it takes.
WHATEVER IT TAKES.