sometimes.. u tend to think.. not cuz ur down or whatever.. jus think.. i know i do.. i do alot. lol.. i doubt myself most of the time.. i feel great abt myself sometimes.. i feel numb of irrelevant stuff all the time.. like just a few moments ago.. i was thinking.. im still like this.. for my math.. tomor is paper one.. and let me tell u that i dont know shit. realy. i m not joking. and i didnt even like bother to think abt studying it.. its not that im giving up on it.. ill feel depressed.. after that. i watch anime. im always like that.. when something like clouds up this mind of mine.. or when im feeling tied down.. shit and stuff.. i watch anime. and as i watch it.. everything suddenly appears to be fine.. ill be like telling myself that itll be fine.. things will work its way out.. i will work my way out.. and ill start to feel good abt myself. LOL..

ive changed. for the sake of someone. now im forced to change.. not really change.. DAMN. I REALLY NEED TO MAKE FRIENDS WITH MORE GIRLS.. or else.. ill be stuck like this..
and i hate it. really.
"why is it so easy to love, but difficult to forget?"

ya know, im really excited.. less than two months.. after the results or should i say, depending on the results.. im going to be free.. ill make sure of it.. i noticed. it was much fun spending time for six years in primary but its so damn frikkin dry to stay for 5 yrs in secondary.. this have got to end.. im a be putting an end to it..

oh yeah.. fasting month is here again.. mixed feeling.. i normally do well throughtout the month.. but im only afraid that ill be thirsty.. once that happens.. sayonara.. lol.. but looking on the better side.. i can shape up and save up.. haha.. and this is scary or what.. the magic of Hari Raya dosent click with me anymore.. My loved ones have went on.. its going to be a different one this time.. i miss nenek and atok.. :(

prelims.fasting.Olvl.HariRaya.results.free.
is this life or what. HAHAHA.